hmm

sometimes i can't believe half the things i've done.

i can't believe i felt certain ways about certain things..
i can't believe it's taking forever for me to forget about them.
yet i mean to hold on to them in the long run anyway..
i don't know how things will turn out =\

yet i'll contradict myself by saying that i believe i have this really extremely random crush. lolll
it's so last minute though cuz it's pointless but wow i can't help it -_-

it's like the part of me that's "growing out" of this is telling me that it's useless and i'd be fine but there's still that random part of me that wants to be happy because of another.

i'm crazy either way -_-